Why do people try to make our lives even harder then they already are?

So after the horrible day I had yesterday I’m sitting in bed with the usual pain in my right hip and lower back. I can feel the tension in my neck building up. All I want to do is stay in bed, sleep and forget this horrible world exists.

I’m not putting up with all the horrible nonsense I’ve put up with. How dare you.

That was how I felt a few days ago, desperately not wanting to go to work. I felt so low, so anxious as I didn’t know what this day would bring. I wish I had listened to my gut and taken a sick day as the day didn’t improve.

I don’t want to go into the details of what actually happened. Not worth talking about the cause but I do want to express how it made me feel.

I am feeling anxious. I don’t know what is causing it but I have not had it for a long time. Past three Sunday nights I’ve not slept so let’s see what tonight brings. I’ve definitely been anxious most mornings too but mainly Monday.

I hate the fact that other people have caused this stress unnessaserally but I am stronger than they think. I’ve done the right thing.